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Dear Adolescent Self,

I know, everything sucks and you don't want to hear from some lame-ass old person. Lame-ass old people try to tell you things like this all the time, but they're just stupid old people that can't possibly understand. You don't respect me because I'm not in a band, I don't have black hair, and I don't look awesome. I don't write screamey songs that speak to your weasley black soul, nor am I Tim Burton or Freddie Mercury. I get it, past self. I get it. Frankly, I don't want to hear things from me either most of the time. As lame as I may be, just hear me out for a minute.

There's this thing you should really, really try, and it's called being happy. No, I'm not high. Yes, this is really quite terrible and hokey. Shut up and stop judging me for a minute, I'm trying to help you, you little twonk. Also, start thinking of absurd insults now, it will help you in the long run.

As I was SAYING, you spend far too much time and effort on being miserable. Part of it is the hormones, some of it may be the asshats from public school I'm sure, but at the end of the day it's all on you. You choose to let things get to you. You choose to listen. You choose to associate with people that make you sad, you choose to bottle things up to cry about later. These are your decisions. You'd rather just sit around and draw vent drawings and think about suicide than look up and realize that your life rocks.

Sure there were a few bitches in public school that called you a fat nerd, but you have piles of friends that think you're awesome. When you get to be old and lame, you are going to realize that people that are just as weird as you really aren't so easy to come by, and yet right now you can't swing a cat without hitting at least five of them. You probably don't use the swing a cat saying yet, it'll come though, trust me. Regardless, relish your weird friends, cherish them, because most of them are going to move off and have kids far sooner than you think.

And for the love of God stop comparing your art to everyone elses. You suck it's true, I have looked through your stuff, but you can get better. That weirdness that people keep judging you for? That is an asset. Technical skill can be taught, but you have that fucked up mind you need to take the technical skills and really run with them. You can also crank out a page of comic in a day. I don't know how the hell you do that, but that is something you really should be faaaaaar more proud of than you are, and you shouldn't let people make you think there's something wrong with you for being so fast. I did, and I regret it like crazy. I can't even do that anymore, let alone come up with enough ideas to enable this, and I am thoroughly convinced that you must be some sort of robot wizard. You're really not a robot though, I know you had suspicions for a while there.

But I have to get to the real point now, otherwise I'll go on forever. If there is one thing you need to seriously know, it's this: Turns out you're not gay after all, but you might be a bit of a transvestite or something (I'll get back to you on that one). Almost everyone you know turns out to be though, and I know you'll be far too stuck in your own little world to see that coming. Especially since most of the girls you know apparently have wicked lady boners for you. I've talked to them since, they told me.

OKAY no that wasn't what I wanted to say. What I really want to say is that despite everything, there is nothing wrong with you. You don't need to be diagnosed, there is quite literally not a single abnormality in your headmeats. You may think there is because you think about suicide practically daily, but there really isn't. You're just really fucking negative and too lazy to actually face your issues head on. You come by it honestly, I'll give you that, but cut it out. Stop brooding and go hang out with your friends. Go outside, do something about the weight. Stop being so afraid to do anything. If you fuck up in public and people judge you, it's really not the end of the world. You don't know those people, and probably wouldn't like them anyway. You wear Halloween makeup on a daily basis anyway, so what do you think they're doing NOW you crazy fuckhead? Seriously though, just stop hating yourself because you think that what you are is some sort of effrontery to all common decency. You're not as smart as you think you are, granted, but you're not all that bad. Everyone doesn't secretly hate you. You just have to quit being so goddamn EMO. There, I said it. You're EMO, and it's ANNOYING. People who would otherwise like you think you're ANNOYING because you're so NEGATIVE. It's not a mental sickness, you're just a teenager. And the more you like yourself, the more other people are going to like you too, and the more you're just going to like everything and just plain being alive.

I'm still trying to pick up the pieces after you, you know. You made quite a mess of us, you silly little sod. Though I learned a little bit later than I would have liked, I could have done worse. There could have been an even older version of us writing about how much of an emo idiot I am too (there still might be yet). Luckily, I have all of your fuck-ups to look back on and learn from. I am going to do everything you didn't. I'm going to go out and talk to strangers, and if I feel like dancing in public I'm going to go for it, because I really don't care what people think like you do. I'm going to take what little smattering of friends I have left, and I'm going to cherish the fuck out of them. So hard. And I'm going to continue to make new ones, if I can, and I'll do the same to them. Because yes, I still have shitty days and yes, periodically I do still have to go collapse in a corner and mope over how much I fail as a human being, but it doesn't control my fucking life. It passes. I get over it, I go try and do things to rectify it.

So while sometimes when I find myself hating you for all these stupid, harmful idiosyncrasies I picked up while I was you, I can't really stay mad at you. You're just a kid, and really blaming you is just another way of taking the lazy way out. We're gonna work at this, kiddie, and we're gonna be alright.
This is sort of unpolished, spur of the moment crap.
It seemed like a good idea at the time. I didn't really bother making it formal or correct. If I can't be informal with myself, then who can I?
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Given 2013-01-14
Dear Teen Me by *Horace-Bulregard Winning submission for the Dear Teen Me contest, this fantastic piece is so personal yet something we can all relate to writing to our younger self. ( Featured by BeccaJS )
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thorn333 Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013
Wow. This is awesome, I can't believe I just discovered it! Would you mind if I wrote a letter to my teen self or had my characters write ones to their past selves? Anyways, I can't wait to see more of your awesome work!
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Horace-Bulregard Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013  Professional General Artist
Haha of course not! After all, I only wrote this because a contest came up with the idea, I don't own the concept in the slightest. xP

Please link them to me when you're done though, I'd love to see them! ^^
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thorn333 Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013
Thank you! I will start working on them soon!
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Horace-Bulregard Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013  Professional General Artist
Hurrah! 8D
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TariaRobotnik Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2013
If we ever invent a time machine I'll mail this to myself! :D
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OkamiAngelStar Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013
*smiles and hugs* this made me smile. thank you.
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MidoriiBlue Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is an amazing piece! I love the somewhat rambling structure, it makes it feel more real. I got really lost in the emotions here and could totally relate (a little watery in the eyes even)....not even that I was an emo kid or anything even close to what was laid out here, but I can relate to reflecting on the past and realizing how far we have come from there and even how far we still have to go. Thank you for sharing this great piece, I am feeling more inspired because of it ;)
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WorldToAlex Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is really good! I like the direct way it is written and the fact that it's humorous because it's you who you're talking to :')
There was a time where I wish that I could pull off the emo style because all the emo girls seemed so pretty, but after hanging out with a really emo crowd I realised that it's just depressing :/ granted these people did smoke and do drugs but they were still a bunch of miserable people :/
But thank for this :) I will try and like myself for who I am now :D
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Moosezoomin Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013  Professional Writer
This is awesome. When I was 13 I wrote a letter to myself 10 years in the future about everything I then thought important. NONE of it (except the stuff about the world) is important, or ever was important. Then I wrote another letter to myself 10 years in the future (9 years to wait and see what it can tell me). Also, being a writer myself (first novel nearly finished) you did the wright [he he] thing: just write when you have an idea. Save the editing for later, when you're in editor mode. Don't edit and write at the same time. Get it all out. That fabulous flow of thoughts and emotion you'll later see as wondrous, even if some of the words aren't the best choices, and you miss some punctuation.
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Horace-Bulregard Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Professional General Artist
Thank you!
I may have done that, but I think I either threw it out or lost it. I can't be held accountable for a piece of paper for 10 years. ^^;

Yeah, I'm trying to keep reminding myself of that. You'd think I'd know, I've finished my first novel and have at least 90 pages on two different projects on the go. I'm having trouble trying to get the right characterizations and tone in my head, on top of deciding to rework both plots. While I want to just write the first draft, I also want to have at least some idea of what I'm doing. Getting the idea is what's the trouble. :faint:
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Moosezoomin Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2013  Professional Writer
I'm only now starting to throw out school work from elementary school ha ha :)

I spend a huge amount of time thinking about my characters and the story. You might say I fantasize about it trying different things in my head, then I write it down. I don't really have trouble with ideas, I just grab anything and everything from the world around me (this is something that is easily learned). It's amazing what bits and pieces from life work great when you piece them together into a story with characters.
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whimandwonder Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love this. Wonderfully written - great humor and such a natural voice. I love how you were able to take something that could have been sentimental and schmaltzy and made it, well, not. :P But still endearing and heart-warming! It's clear that even though you regret some of the past, you have a lot of love for teenage-you. I think your message about not being so negative applies to older people as well - it's something we all can work on, including myself. Congratulations on the DD, and I hope life continues to look brighter and brighter for you for all of your days. :) Thanks for the inspiration.
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whimandwonder Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh, and the part about not comparing your work to others? Goddddd how I relate!! Even now!
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deshkitei Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is amazing :D when I was reading it, I kept seeing myself as I am now, a teenager. This has really changed the way I think about things now :'D thank you for writing this, and it definitely deserved the DD. btw I love the word 'twonk' :) XD
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blobble Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I think 90% of people can relate to this. Well done, so eloquently written!
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Horace-Bulregard Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2013  Professional General Artist
Haha I don't know if I would describe anything with the word 'twonk' in it as eloquent, but I appreciate you doing so. Thank you. ^^
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Lady-Mystiana Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
It is scary how some of the lines made me flinch.
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runty Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
I think this was very insightful, and represents lots of things most of us would like to tell our younger selves.

ESPECIALLY the parts about 'JUST BE HAPPY- you're okay, and you're awesome the way you are! Cherish it all!'.
Some - if not most - people never learn this lesson, even when they're way, way older than teenagers, so it's good to put it out there :heart:
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Arakis-angel Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so wonderful! I love everything about it. I like the frank, open and honest dialogue and the humor sprinkled throughout. Most of all I like the message, it is a really well-put kick in the pants that a lot of teens could really use. Especially me about 20 years ago. This is brilliant and I'm so glad you got the DD.
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SenshiStock Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
This was great to read and really interesting; I like how it came around. I keep a written journal and some of my old entries are to my future self. Might write one of those tonight.
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IbiteU Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The number of times I've wanted to write to my younger self and tell them to stop being such a fopish twat. I think lots more people should be doing this kind of thing. :)
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Deathbypuddle Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
A much deserved DD! Congrats! :clap:
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Horace-Bulregard Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Professional General Artist
Thank you very much ^^
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Deathbypuddle Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
you're welcome! :D
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Beautifully-Horrid Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student Digital Artist
This is exactly how I feel about teenagers like this.
You are spot on, and I am so glad that you posted this & got a DD.
You deserved it!
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Horace-Bulregard Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Professional General Artist
Thank you very much ^^
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DragonRider200 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
Buddy,you. Just. Blew.My. Mind. Away.
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aertew Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If my future self could send a letter to my at the present, this is how it would look like.
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sausagename Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
oh, laugh. its not your words that humor me, but the contradiction they pose.
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aertew Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i suppose my comment is ironic, but I'm sure a lot of people can relate to your letter to yourself. Congrats on the DD.
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GaleSpider Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Really well done. Love the way you describe things in here.
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Affy4 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is just amazing.

Now I'm inspired to write a letter to my OLDER self about what I feel like now and my major problems now, so that when I'm older I can look back and read it and see how far I've come.
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purpledragona Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student Digital Artist
now.... not this really got hard on me....
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faster-by-choice Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
I wish I was an adult so I could write this to myself (and some other folks). This is powerful. And so right. You are great for writing this :clap:
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R-no71 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
I wish some people I know could read this and maybe learn a lesson from it.
There's a sort of beautiful message into this, expressed in an original way.
Sadly I can't write as well as you to explain correctly how rich I find this text above.
Kudos to you. :)
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Stalcry Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Seriously this is awesome. I want to send this to my teenage self. This is just excellent. I think a lot of people need to hear this. I did when I was a younger.
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abstract-mouse Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
this is so amazing. I can relate to it SO MUCH. O.O except i'm probably the one wearing Halloween makeup XD
:) you really are an inspirational writer.
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Stalcry Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Get out of my head o-o
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You wouldn't have become the person you are now without the fuckups of your previous self, so you go easy on you, you're responsible for who you now are.
If you were all positive to begin with you wouldn't have learn to over come and most likely wouldn't be the awesome person you are today.

Sorry, couldn't help myself.
Nothing particularly ground breaking, just amusing myself because for some reason calling someone on being too mean to themselves hits my funny bone.
And I love this little prose and am from this day forward using the 'swing a cat' line every damn day.
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FlammableRainbowz Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist
This is amazing! :)
Although I'm still a teenager, it really reminds me of myself x3
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Emmaethyst Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist
Reading this I instantly thought of one of my friends who's really starting to bother me because she's so emo and acting like her life is the worst EVERY day. Maybe if I email this to her it'll help her....

Thank you.
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Foxstarr Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013   Writer
There are so many things I want to say about this, but the only thought I can put into words is thank you. If only we could really send letters back in time.
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sausagename Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
we can. it's called "those to come".
the next generation.

may they learn from us, and we from them.
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frozen-fyre Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
Thank you for this, so much. It's just so hard to see the light sometimes, though, especially when you DON'T have many friends or know how to make new ones. Any tips, O wise elder?
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sausagename Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
i may not be old, but experience is no matter of age. here:
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be too strong for fear, and too wise for regret.
bad things will happen,
but so will everything else.
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frozen-fyre Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2013
Thanks :)
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Horace-Bulregard Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Professional General Artist
Hahaha I am far from wise I can assure you. xP

I have a friend that has a really great way of keeping things in perspective, actually. What he does is whenever something good happens to him, he writes it on a scrap of paper and sticks it in a jar. His plan is at the end of each year he looks through his accumulated jars of awesome to reflect on how good life has been to him.

The trick to making friends though, I find, is just to try and be outgoing and receptive to people. I know last year my best friend started hanging out with people in residence, which left me sitting at home alone a lot (I don't live in res). I made an effort to actually talk to people in my classes and in the halls, and now I've got plenty of friends. Mind you that doesn't always quite work out, but really the worst people can do is not like you, which isn't really all that bad. xP

Hopefully some of that was at least remotely helpful ^^;
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MooCloud Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
I actually really like that idea :D -- it seems like a good way to keep myself in check. thanks for the idea ^^
./goes to find jar to fill
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WesleyBlakeReese Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013
YES, YES,YES.
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IvyM93 Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
This is awesome!
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